Christmas Week/New Semester

hello to all,
i know it has been a while since ive been on here, but ive been busy with my Christmas break and getting stuff together for spring semester. now a lot happened over the break, so instead of telling you all day by day, i thought i could tell you all what happened each day, but in one big post!! sounds smart right?
well to start off, this whole break made me realize that in one semester, i have changed TREMENDOUSLY.... to the point that it scares and in a way hurts me. like for example, my freshman year, i did some STUPID things. i dont regret any of it though, but i do wish they all couldve went in a different position than they turned out to be. but in that year i didnt care ONE BIT for family that i tried to reach my parents once a MONTH. but now in my sophmore year, when all the silliness ive done now backfired at me and as i was fixing my problem last semester, i missed my parents so much that i started questioning my goals from time to time. i mean, ive stopped, but its just the fact that so much of me has changed in a duration of 4 months, so much more to come.
speaking of changes, to change the subject, let me tell you how in 3 weeks, ive recieved more than ive asked for.
CHRISTMAS BREAK:
12/18- i arrived home but since i didnt do anything but sleep, im not counting this day. lets start off with the next day as day 1.
Day 1: so to understand this day let me tell you that i didnt just sleep yesterday, i started yesterday at home with the airline loosing my only bag i brought with me(remember the key word ONE BAG for later) so on this day, i still dont have it. and what also made this day a little cruddy was that my car was dead because no one had the key to my car..... which i didnt want them to have it anyway. but what turned out to be great about this day was that i got to spend time with both my my parents by going tree hunting and to a party with my dad, and going shopping with my mom.
Day 2: its around 1:15ish in the morning, and i just came back from the party and im getting ready for bed. and as i take out my contacts, i drop and loose one. and what sucks about it was that they were brand new, as in that was my 1st day putting them in..... grrrr....oh well, i just didnt use the others till the next month (as in the day that im typing this post, is the 1st day im using new pair of contacts) but was the good thing about this day was that my luggages came and that i decorated the tree tradition style....
Day 3: didnt really do anything but played games and watched tv, so moving right along.....
Day 4:on this day i went to the El Capitan with my mom and we went to see the movie Christmas Carol with Jim Carrey. thats a good movie by the way, its based ENTIRELY on the book, from wording to even description.(way to go disney) also on that day, it made me realize that just asking a question can get you something you might not be expecting.
Day 5: this day had started out boring, but it got interesting when i thought about my life. i found out that one of my homegurls had a bf. now you may think so what, but look at it in my perspective. its me & 3 of my homegurls. and last semester, we were all in positions that we just ended a relationship. out of the 4 of us, during last semester, all 3 of them found someone else. now at first i was thinking, why are yall rushing, but then i remembered i USE to do that as well. i say USE and not STILL because im not in one and im not trying to for a while. to even be honest, this is the longest that ive ever been single since i started dating, now thinking about it, thats a problem because its only been almost 5 months!! and this is the longest that ive been single!?!? i noticed that i rush in relationships. which is why they would all turn out the way they did. so im glad im taking a break, because now i can focus on MORE IMPORTANT things... like myself. which was what i was doing the rest of that day.
Day 6: this day was one of the good days i had during the break. this day is Christmas eve, and my mom has to go shopping for some more things, so as we are leaving, i noticed that a body carboard was about to fall right next to this lady who wasnt paying attention. i just stood there in waited for her to noticed and for her reaction, cause im thinking she is going to be like oh snap i didnt do it and run away, but what end up happening was when she did notice, she screamed so loud, that not only did everyone in the mall look, but the POLICE came cause they thought something happened. HILLARIOUS!!! later on in the day i went to my cousins aunts house for their traditional Christmas eve party, which made me feel old, seeing that all my youngest cousins are now in or going to HIGH SCHOOL!!!! wow, but it still was fun.
Day 7: MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!! i didnt really ask for much, but i got too much in long run. and with all the stuff i got, its mainly of money and clothes. so i had dinner with parents and one family member, which i dont care cause i got what i was waiting for MOMMYS FOOD!!!! if the itis doesnt knock you out, i dont know what does, oh yea, my momma when she puts her foot in her cooking!!!!!!
Day 8: i got a chance to hang out with my M&M twins! which was going great, until they started arguing, as usual. so now its me, one of the twins, and the homegurl and we all just went to see Alvin and the Chimpmuncks 2.. which was pretty good. but here is where i learn something, i had realized that on this day that i was still holding a burden on my ex, which made me also realize that it was effecting me ever letting me talk to other guys, which was why in the 1st place i said FUCK IT to relationships. but it souldnt be like that, you cant give up on something just because of someone or something else. i mean you can take a break from it, but for me, during that time i was done and didnt want to do relationships ANYMORE. so on that day, i decided that my ex was not going to hold me back anymore. and that i had to change my ways. but this wasnt the day that i did, this was the day to open my eyes. also on this day, my grades came in and... I DID IT!!!! i passed all my classes like i hoped for. so all that work came into GREAT use... and dont worry, this semester, it will only get better.
Day 9: i went to church. for the people who know me i bet you are thinking "is this really elon?" yes it is. He has done so much me, espically last semester that it made me realize that i wasnt giving Him enough credit. so on this day i went to church on the last sunday of the year 2009, and what did i learn on this day, "if they are driving you crazy, get them out of your mind." which let me say, as i end this day, that i didnt just yet.
Day 10:FINALLY GOT THE CAR FIXED, and..... ummm..... you know what i dont wanna talk about this day anymore, if you want to know more about this day, just look at my last post.
Day 11: so i went to the doctor to get my checkup and i found out that im still the same heigh, which is "cool beans" for me. i also realized that i really wasnt taking care of myself over the fall semester, so i realized and learned that im 1st to care about on my list. that i need to take care of myself and my priorities first before anything else. but later on in the day, as i was on my computer, i got a skype call from my ex. now all the feelings i had felt about him came back out, nothing of missing him, but of HATING HIM!!! from there i realized that i need to let all of this anger go and really move on.. but how????
Day 12: got my hair done, and im never going back to that person again. and i got more clothes, did i really need more? NO but oh well
Day 13: this day i hated the most, but shouldve saw it coming. got into it with my mom, and over the most stupidest thing as well (to my little big brothers: when i asked you the question about the balls, that concept had to do with what me and mom were arguing about) but it all went well when me and mom went out to eat which was great, and the food was not that bad either.(tee hee) and this was the day that the "blue moon" came out. so of course with my supersticious family, we made wishes. not telling you what it is neither.
Day 14: HAPPY NEW YEAR!! at noon on this day, i did another tradition by eating greens and black eye peas as soon as the clock stroke 12pm. then later on in that day, i started packing some stuff and i, yet again, enjoyed my moms cooking. mmmmmmmm................
Day 15: this is the 1st day that i started driving my car (i know, late in the break) and i finally got what ive been wanting for years. what is it you ask? lets just say theyre so special, it has my name written all over it. (tee hee)
Day 16: the day where i changed the most. its the 1st sunday of the new year, so i went to church. what i learned from church was that i just cant sit around and wait for something to happen, i have to get it. but what i didnt realize that it finally got to my head, was that that concept goes with everything in your life. so what did i do after church, well i started typing. that day i sent 2 emails to two people telling them how i felt. one of those emails was for, can you guess, my ex!!! yep i finally did it! i told him everything!!! and i felt GREAT!!!! cause on that day, i FINALLY MOVED ON.....
Day 17: i was driving all day and got a breast exam and some school supplies. here was where i ws counting down the days and getting more depressed by the second
Day 18: went driving to go see my mother at her job. which i found out as soon as me and my dad leave that we wasnt supposed to be there, but im glad i did anyway..... still counting the days and now im to the point that i start to cry on the fact that im leaving.
Day 19: with the email i sent to my ex, he actually responded back. turns out that he was just trying to be my friend, but when he saw that i wasnt, he just told me in my words to "have a nice life" and again i felt GREAT!!!! now let me say this, in the email i did say that i didnt want to be friends or talk to him again, but i was never like that. when i started doing relationships, when one would end, i would try so hard to keep in touch with them and still be their friend, but it never worked out, thats when i realized that if i become friends with my ex, it will only just hold me back. so thats why i said that to him, to FULLY move on and to stop a cycle that i kept doing. now the rest of the day, i hung out with my friends from AGC (amazing grace conservatory) which was AWESOME!!! but my day ended with me crying again cause im not ready to go.
Day 20: started to really pack, and doing it was a pain!!! and after that i went to get some jewlery fixed.
Day 21: the day that i was GOING to leave(key word going) this was the day that i learned something that will help me for the rest of my life.. "not everything is perfect, nor does it lasts long." then i went on describing to myself what im looking for in a man. but the rest of the day was field with misery and waste of time. it didnt start when my uncle took me n my mom out to lunch, it started after that. to the point that im hating EVERYTHING!!! finished packing, with a total of now 3 suitcases (note: i only came with one, had to buy more..) and knew that when i woke up early the next morning, i would be gone.
....or would i
Day 22: ok so as im getting ready for bed i realized, i couldnt leave. even though i knew it would cost a lot of money, i begged my mom to change my flight. but guess what, GOD IS GOOD. found out the flight that i was supposed to be on was DELAYED for 3 HOURS!!! so what they did was not only did the airline changed my flight, but they did it for FREE!!!!! GOD IS TOO GOOD!!!! so this day was actually my LAST DAY!! and what did i do? why i went to Chuck E Cheese!!! yea i said it, and i did, i was a BIG KID and proud of it. later on that night i got a chance to spend time with my parents and watch the Cowboys win!!! so at 10:55 i had said my goodbyes, which was the hardest thing to do, and was on the plane leaving to achieve my goal for life.
so now as i finish this LONG ASS post about my break, i realize that not only do i still miss my family, but i have came a long way, and with this documentary still going, there is still more to come.
its not a pedal that undergo some changes, but the rose itself.